Friends! It’s been so long and I miss you all to bits. I have been keeping up with a couple of you when I can, but not nearly as much as I’d like to. I’m finally starting to get the hang of this school thing, so hopefully I can keep up with you better soon. I wanted to hop on here and give yall an update on how things have been for me. Going back to school was a scary thing, something I was really nervous about. It took me a while to build up the gumption to even do it. If I would’ve had someone’s insight on what it was like going back, I might have gone sooner. So, in case any of you are in that position, here I am telling you how it is. 🙂
I was really worried about the workload and balancing everything in my life. I’m a returning college student, but I’m primarily a mama. I was worried I was going to have to sacrifice some areas in my role as a mama in order to be successful in school, and I’ve found that that’s not the case. Things are different in our house now. My daughter goes to school while I go to school (which she LOVES,) and oftentimes I have to sit at the table and do schoolwork while my daughter sits next to me drawing or playing with blocks or having a solo dance party, etc. But I haven’t felt forced to sacrifice anything. In fact, I actually feel as though I have more to give somehow. Not sure how that works, but I’m taking it while I’ve got it.
Being an English major means I spend the majority of my free time reading for school or writing for school. There isn’t a lot of free time to do either of those things for pleasure, although there might be if you didn’t have a husband and a 3 year old. I miss reading whatever the heck I want and writing whatever the heck I want, but I know what I’m doing now is making me better at both of those things. Is it possible to be a better reader? Yes, I’d say so. It’s definitely possible to be a better interpreter of literature, which is what we spend a lot of time on. I’m certainly interested to see what reading a book of my choosing will be like after my first semester is completed.
I love what I study, I love my assignments and I love going to class. I don’t know how else to say it. The girl who absolutely hated high school and never had high ambitions for herself is now seeing the world through a lens of possibility, and enjoying it. My forward momentum keeps building and moving faster and I don’t plan on stopping it anytime soon. My future is just that, mine. And I’m so thankful for that. This opportunity is not lost on me. If you would’ve told 18 year old me that I would end up studying English and feel completely invigorated and excited about it, I would’ve said you were lyin! But life has led me here in the only way it could.
My biggest piece of advice to anyone looking to go back to school is to make sure you love what you study. If you don’t love it, it will feel like a hassle and a burden. If you love it, it will feel fun and exciting and will fuel a part of you that you never knew existed. Loving what you study makes the difference. I’m halfway through my first semester and I feel 100% certain that I’m studying the right thing.
Come Christmastime, I should be back with a couple of reviews. I’ve got a few books in mind that I’d like to read and I can’t wait to get my heart sucked inside a book again. I miss it so. Do you guys have any MUST READS for me during my time off? I hope you all are well and reading alllll of the books. Fill me in on your adventures! I’ll be checking in when I can. Xoxo